Why are you
defending yourself? Why are you telling me why you can't be present?
I am not preaching right and wrong. I am not telling you that you have
to be a certain way. If you ask me how can you feel blissful then I have
to tell you, be present. Be present with whatever way you find yourself
to be. If you are working then let that be. If you feel depressed,
then let these feelings be. You seem to think I am some
"evolved" being that is beyond emotions. It is the opposite.
All emotions, pain moves through me. But it moves because there is
presence. Just like it moves when you are present. Then it is just
energy.
I am the
wrong person for pity. I love you too much to have pity on you.
The outer world has to be as it is. It is as it is. Your
judgment on that is only judgment. Take away the judgment and there is
peace.
It is not easy. It requires your complete focus.
But the alternative is your illusory suffering which comes from all of your
judgments and resistance to the way things are.
What I am really
suggesting is why not stop banging your head against the wall? Life is
not meant to be an easy ride on the merry go round. it's a roller coaster
ride. If you jump up and down screaming "stop this thing! I
hate this! What if I fall? What if I hurt myself?"
then you suffer. But if you just sit there and watch the ride, you see
that nothing is out to get you. It's just a ride. And there you
remain sitting still inside while everything happens.
